The Birthslay: Pt. 2/ Note To Self

Dear Mani,

First off you're extra af because you've literally been celebrating your bday for two weeks now sis. We get it, you're twentyfine. I just want you to look back and remember you've always been this extra when you're 40 dressed like Joanne the scammer just to go to the grocery store.

Also, be grateful for your sister who was willing to risk it all and trespass on these ppls property to get these shots for you. 

24 in NY was struggle city but here's what you learned because of it.

1. Say what's on your mind in that moment. If you feel a way about something there's no need to internalize it let it go boo.

2. It's ok to check out. Stop feeling guilty for taking time for yourself or not being able to always be the friend with the best advice. Log out sometimes, put your phone on do not disturb and take care of you.

3. Girl! If you can survive being broke as hell in New York, the most expensive city in the world-- life will be lit when you get a check. Wait on it, your income will increase, but spend like you still broke so we can be set and live an extra life later.

4. Believe ppl when they show you who they are. The FIRST time. And if someone truly knows your worth, because you are a gem, they won't risk losing you. For instance, that Tiffanys necklace daddy got you meant the world to you. To this day you don't even leave the house wearing it because you're not trying to lose it.

P.S. You're certainly worth more than a Tiffany's necklace but I thought this was a great metaphor.

5. Life alone is enough to be happy. Don't waste time waiting for the perfect job, location, relationship, body, etc. to enjoy life. You're easier to please than you think. If you ever get caught up, go outside, go to that waterfall you like and praise God for being able to witness his work.

6. No is a full sentence. If you're not here for something you're just not. Say "no" more. It's "No" period, not "No" comma.

7. You have one life and no time to worry about what other ppl want for YOUR life or will think of you if you do and go after what you want. Eff it and do you. Also, stop telling everybody your aspirations. Not everyone will get it and that's ok.

8. Not everyone has positive energy, but you do. Don't be selfish with it and allow outside forces to change that because you were put here to be a light to someone. It's okay to cut ties to anyone or anything toiling with that energy. 

9. You apologize too much.

10. All opportunities aren't good opportunities. Don't work with anybody that expects you to dim your light so they can shine and for damn sure don't work with anyone that expects you to put your personal goals on hold for their betterment. Ya feel me?

11. Stressing is such a waste of time. Stop stressing. Everything you've stressed about ended up working out and as soon you decide to calm down and think clearly, you're a beast with making the best out of nothing. Do yourself and the ppl around you a favor and relax. Every month you panicked about paying rent...but were you ever homeless tho? 

12. Stop questioning yourself. Stop allowing others to project their self doubt on you. You know your worth. You know your work ethic and more importantly you have faith. 

So you can stop coming down on yourself now. After reflecting it seems like 24 was progressive. Oh and you look tf good. Refer to the pics below: