Bomb On a Budget/Moment Of Honesty

Moment of honesty: Lately, I've been determining my worth and evaluating my talents by the recognition I receive, or lack thereof. For instance, my resume has been tailored by professors, previous managers, my mother and friends who have climbed ladders in their own careers; not only is my resume "on fleek" but with my blog, writing samples, magazine and organic social media growth I have tangible proof that I am capable of all of the skills listed on my resume. Well, I'll get to the point--for years I've applied to dream jobs, settled for internships, etc. and after spending weeks trying to put all of my experience into a one page resume and creating the perfect cover letter; to say it's frustrating when no one even responds to give you so much as an interview it can make you feel like you're not good enough. I honestly send in applications anticipating that, "Thank you for your application;however we regret to inform you..." and all I can think is, "Damn, I wasn't event dope enough to get an interview. What is it they don't see in me?" In other words, it sucks. Then the comparing game begins , when you question why is this success thing so much easier for everyone but me?

I vented to my best friend fo'eva and she talked some since into me, told me to keep going and not put my value into other people (more of what she told me will be revealed on Monday).

For anyone that has felt the same way, I just want to let you know that you are still bomb. Keep pushing and if no one ever gives you recognition for your dopeness, keep doing what you love and striving to be YOUR best. Yes, get angry about it but give yourself a day max and the next day start anew, dust yourself off and brainstorm a game plan. Think of all the things you aren't doing, even when you think, "I'm doing my best, I don't know what else I could possibly do," you can go harder.

Instead of wallowing in my pity, I contacted one of my favorite supervisors to send me work I'd done for her to add to my portfolio; asked her for references or suggestions as to where to apply-she not only provided a list of suggestions and work for my port but asked for my resume to tweek and send to people she knows in the industry. *Light bulb*, that may be one thing I've been doing wrong, not using my resources out of fear that people will see me as an opportunist.

Learn from your failures, regroup and go get it! Oprah wasn't built in a day.It's been a minute since I've published a 'You Betta Werk' post but this Monday I'll talk about turning that frustration with failures into fuel. To my bestie, thank you for going in on me and inspiring me.

Now about this outfit; My Prince(esque) top is thrifted, it was only $5; my overalls are from Marshall's for just $10 and my shoes (which y'all have seen a gazillion times) are from Target. Oh and my shades were just $10, I purchased them from a hustler in China town lol.

On this day I had a job interview in Brooklyn and because I spent hella money on a monthly Metro pass I decided to put it to use after my interview and explore Dumbo, Brooklyn. Enjoy the pics below and stay tuned for Monday's, 'You Betta Werk' post!